Thank you, thank you, thank you for the prayers and thoughts on my behalf. I am doing better after a very productive and progressing week. I had one job interview that would be at a very urban charter school teaching 1st grade. But as I've thought about it, I'm more and more interested in this position, so I find out Friday if I get it!! I also met a lady while dropping by another charter school who was very kind and interested in me. So perhaps there will be something there too! This progress will hopefully lead somewhere, if not at least in helped my depression big time this week.
Today Elder Christofferson, 12 apostle (sp?), visited our stake and spoke. His message on faith really struck me. For so long I've been struggling with faith, wanting more, and being mad at myself for lacking in faith. But he said that faith is a spiritual gift from Heavenly Father that comes through the spirit, its not something that we conger up inside of ourselves (which was my misconception). There are ways we can seek after and increase that gift through feasting on the words of God, reading the scriptures to hear the voice of the Lord. He said when Alma was talking to Helaman he told him to preach repentance and faith, but we usually find the order of those words reversed in the scriptures, faith leads to repentance. So repentance apparently also leads to more faith too. Greater obedience to the Lord, entering into covenants, and sacrificing lead to increase measures of faith in our lives. I guess I never realized that faith is increased in doing the right things, not in creating it or just believing harder. So this was a huge revelation to me and just what I needed to hear. How and why the Lord decided to talk just to me I don't know but this is what I was needing to hear! And it was really neat to see Elder Christofferson in person.
Garden. I just LOVE our garden. I even go out there sometimes just to look and talk even to take pictures of the plants. I pray for it too. It is so amazing to see God's handy work and to know that all of this vegetation came from a tiny little seed. God is in nature! I am so funny that I have even found myself talking about it to friends and stuff and then realize that they probably don't care. At least here in my journal blog, I can talk all I want about these amazing plants. Check out the great pictures I took this week. I just love the watermellons that are a size of a pea! Cucumbers the size of an AAA battery. I just love it!
Thanks again.
Lov
